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I Cried and Cried as I Remembered

I Cried and Cried as I Remembered

Last night I cried and cried as I watched the movie, Captain Fantastic. I grieved for a life I have so longed for, and have not been able to successfully create.

It’s the life I really, really, really, REALLY want. And it feels too late for me to have it. (I know this is just my mind BS and it’s up to me to stay focused on what I want, which is something I teach in our Money Map to Freedom course and in Eyes Wide Open coaching, but that doesn’t mean I don’t still struggle with it myself.)

I had something close to it for a year when I gave everything up and moved to a farm outside of town with my kids.

But it felt unsustainable without a man like “Captain Fantastic” by my side. Or maybe he was there and my own lack of true readiness for that life made it so I couldn’t see him.

So I moved back into the world of business, and busy-ness, and rebuilt the structures I had, though this time with more connection to the land, and community and myself than I had ever had before

And I can see how the life I have once again created makes it currently unlikely I would even meet or connect with a man who could or would want the life of Captain Fantastic.

And of course it’s a movie so it’s all romanticized.

But it feels really good (and yes really sad too) to once again remember and open to the deeper longing of my heart.

Now, what to do with this remembering?

Well, it all begins with the acknowledgement of what I truly want.

The first step in the Money Map to Freedom process.

This isn’t something you do just once, set and forget; it’s a lifelong evolution, spiraling up, creating from current awareness and then revising based on our own shifting energy patterns and desires as we become more of who we really are.

Each turn of the wheel bringing us new awareness of our WHAT we really, really, really, REALLY want. And when we create from that place (rather than moving into the HOW from the conditioned place of sales, marketing, and media messages), we take another step closer ourselves.

Acknowledging what we really want, and fully facing and experiencing the grief of not having it, is where it always begins.

It’s the step so many of us skip because we either get distracted from our deeper knowing, or pretend we don’t want it because the thought of not having it creates such risk for a disappointment that feels as if it would be unbearable, or we try to move into the how before we’ve really let the emotion of desire ripple through us.

So we settle for so much less. Pretending it’s okay. Avoiding feeling the emotions.

Or we hide our true desires behind judgment or envy.

If you are ready to open to a deeper level of knowing (and having) what you really, really, really, REALLY want and discover your own path to creating it based on what true, real, meaningful success means to you, I invite you to join us for our next live training on the Money Map to Freedom.

We’re doing it again live on Thursday, July 21, this time in the evening so those of you who can’t attend during the day can join us. You can register here:


From my wide open heart,


PS — if you were already registered for the last training on Thursday during the day and you couldn’t make it, we’ve already registered you for the next Thursday evening training. Please do make sure you do the pre-work before the training, as much as possible. Details on that in your email if you registered.